things do fall in place eventually

Facts about me:
I have a fear of getting bogged down at occasions that I am not suppose to
I procrastinate
I think about thinking what I think
I am more than aware of self
I get dejected at the slightest of negative trends
I get distracted by things which pull me away from the plan that I worked my yesterday on
I talk incoherent stuff (frequency depends on the number of times i am low and hence confused)
I take my self esteem for a ride at many occasions
I come back to square one too often to be back again
I avoid commitment
I run away from failures which haunt me till today
I create a baggage of uncertainities to make life a little more complicated

FACTS ABOUT THE FUTURE ME
I want to be clear in my thoughts
I want to achieve success in monetary terms
I want to perform theatre
I want to see the world
I want to tell my kids stories every night till they become storytellers to the world
I want to conquer my inabilities
I want to lead a simple and honest life
I want to make my parents proud
I want to touch various hearts in a vivid manner
I want to be worth my self
I want to learn and implement my learnings in ways more than one
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"Then I think, hey why not let it be? Say that my parents and upbringing got me that trait."

"But, its not about them. Its about me - a girl of 23 finishing her postgraduate studies, looking towards the same corporate future that she pictured before joining the course. Does it look a bit different now? Sure, the area of specialization has changed. She is a marketer now. Skills of negotiation are what she shall be picking up as she enters the new world. Wait a sec, did i say corporate ladder? What was on her mind all this while? Advertising and its glamour ??? True its a great place to get squeezed out in. But, when is it suppose to be planned in her life? Now or 5 years down the line? "
 
"I guess I have got a new perspective on things today. It has been observed that great businesses are chalking out 'back to basics' plan. So really small things do matter in life. They contribute to those gaps which if filled could lead to a success story. The point is if you cannot make a plan to turn around a declining brand called YOU - you can never to the same to any market brand"

"Holding on to that thought so tightly that I can feel my nails digging into the flesh; I want to do it. Not just on paper but in reality. I want to taste the preparation of success."

To the FEAR  
Hi, hope you get hunted to death by my endeavors as I am so done with you.
Amen
To CONFUSION
Hey, go back to the land where you came from. You are a disgusting piece of  disgust to have disguised as the great thought of conficious.
Good Riddence.
To GUILT and SELF-DEMEANING thoughts
I curse you. You shall have no shelter and will die of hunger.
*&*&***
To COMMITMENT
I marry you as I write.


To the WORLD
You were just waiting for ME. I promise to put the next 17155 days of my life to make success as painted on the wall of my mind.

LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN